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Monday, June 8, 2009
Tried.and.Tired
Just when I thought things have taken for the better, there you go again. I just do not understand why it is my fault when certain mails do not reach you. I also do not understand why it is my fault when things do not go your way. Am i am outlet for you to vent your frustrations? If I am then let me know cause when I signed on the dotted lines to undertake this role, I do not see this as part of my scope.
I am imperfect, yes. I make mistakes. I, too have my moments of displeasure. But I do not blame you for each and every single thing that happens to me.
I am sick.and.tired of all this ludicrousness. I really am.
Do not try me.
I am imperfect, yes. I make mistakes. I, too have my moments of displeasure. But I do not blame you for each and every single thing that happens to me.
I am sick.and.tired of all this ludicrousness. I really am.
Do not try me.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Frustrate. Me
As hard as I try to regain my composure, I just cant do it. Things are all heading in the wrong direction. Tsk. I really loathe that unsettling feeling when everything that I have planned for suddenly becomes uncertain.
One of my best TSEs tendered his resignation today. All because of a project that has proven its ability in bringing my staff down. Demoralised and pushed to rock bottom, one has decided to surrender. A few others have consulted me and made aware of their intentions to leave for a rival company if the performance of the project does not improve. I do not blame them. They are here to support their livelihood, and if this project is not bringing in results, its ultimately affecting their incentives. As much as it breaks my heart to see them go cos mind you, they are a bunch of fine TSEs with little or no attitude/performance issues, I have to release them so that they will be able to seek greener pastures and attain better things in life.
The other department is also not helping. Not only is the quality of the project questionable, you are also asking me to rush out a report that is taking me weeks to update. Yes, I do understand your frustration as you need my report to analyse the consumer behaviour. But at the same time, who is empathising with me? I have to manually update 33k worth of data on excel and its taking me forever. And please, I too have other projects and job functions. I am holding onto other roles as well. Sigh. This is really getting to me.
Ugh. I cant wait for Friday to be over.
Quoted from one of the managers in another dept : Nothing done does not mean we are not working.
One of my best TSEs tendered his resignation today. All because of a project that has proven its ability in bringing my staff down. Demoralised and pushed to rock bottom, one has decided to surrender. A few others have consulted me and made aware of their intentions to leave for a rival company if the performance of the project does not improve. I do not blame them. They are here to support their livelihood, and if this project is not bringing in results, its ultimately affecting their incentives. As much as it breaks my heart to see them go cos mind you, they are a bunch of fine TSEs with little or no attitude/performance issues, I have to release them so that they will be able to seek greener pastures and attain better things in life.
The other department is also not helping. Not only is the quality of the project questionable, you are also asking me to rush out a report that is taking me weeks to update. Yes, I do understand your frustration as you need my report to analyse the consumer behaviour. But at the same time, who is empathising with me? I have to manually update 33k worth of data on excel and its taking me forever. And please, I too have other projects and job functions. I am holding onto other roles as well. Sigh. This is really getting to me.
Ugh. I cant wait for Friday to be over.
Quoted from one of the managers in another dept : Nothing done does not mean we are not working.
Strange-r
Keeping score of old scores and scars, getting even and one-upping, always makes you less than you are. -- Malcolm Forbes
Last year, in a company contest, I won a tiny book filled with notes that will open up one's heart and mind. 'Lift Me Up' by Ron Kaufman. I have never gotten myself to flip the pages as I was filled with disinterest and thought that it was merely pages of quotes which I could just gather from the web.
What got me to pick up this book thats been lying on my work-desk for the past year was a comment made by a guest on my blog tagboard. She was an anonymous wife/mother who said that I should not be feeling down and out as I have described. With a wholesome family and an adorable son with me, she felt that I should be consoled and contented. She, a stranger was trying me feel better. And at that moment, I tried looking at things in prospective.
My life might not be filled with riches. I do have moments where I felt that more is always better. And how i yearn to get a new Coach, etc - not that there's anything wrong with the existing one though. Khalil and I do have our differences. His ideals and mine cause us to bicker at times but at the end of the day, we are working towards the same goal - all for the good of Haziq.
So, thank you, Ms Guest. =) Whoever you are, you have opened up my initially half-shut eyes and now I believe, my glass is finally half full.
Last year, in a company contest, I won a tiny book filled with notes that will open up one's heart and mind. 'Lift Me Up' by Ron Kaufman. I have never gotten myself to flip the pages as I was filled with disinterest and thought that it was merely pages of quotes which I could just gather from the web.
What got me to pick up this book thats been lying on my work-desk for the past year was a comment made by a guest on my blog tagboard. She was an anonymous wife/mother who said that I should not be feeling down and out as I have described. With a wholesome family and an adorable son with me, she felt that I should be consoled and contented. She, a stranger was trying me feel better. And at that moment, I tried looking at things in prospective.
My life might not be filled with riches. I do have moments where I felt that more is always better. And how i yearn to get a new Coach, etc - not that there's anything wrong with the existing one though. Khalil and I do have our differences. His ideals and mine cause us to bicker at times but at the end of the day, we are working towards the same goal - all for the good of Haziq.
So, thank you, Ms Guest. =) Whoever you are, you have opened up my initially half-shut eyes and now I believe, my glass is finally half full.